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trujat77 — Sat, 03 Oct 2009 05:51:26 CDT

this used to be now that is. That which follows this is from over a month ago plus a week, so tell me now how you think I may be doing ... I feel scattered still without focus. or maybe it is to many ideas to be dealing with at one time. When is it a good time to simply throw your hands up and demand help in a matter(s). What makes one thing more important than the other(s)? For example; when I amfinishing a project, but can't because lack of proper material okay this one I understand, but the one I have an issue with is when you have to do some stuff, just to have this thing, in order to use that, so one project is closer to being done. Why must it be a never ending cycle , when am I going to finish something, anything for that matter ? and asWalter C. would say "...the rest of the story." xXx why is it that my mind is scattered and frayed, how many others have this dis ease ? I know I can do this, I've done it before, yet something keeps me from going for the door. Something happened or maybe snapped to cause this dilemma that I just cannot stand. How is it that when two or more people occupy a space one of them need to interact, letting sound out the mouth. This is very disturbing and hard to ignore, what was I doing , how long has it been? When told to don't dare distract me, it slips past the attention of every one of them(s). How many times am I going to sit and sigh, will I ever just get it, will I ever get the bigger picture done ? Will I ever get just one path to follow.. instead my fingers don't have a chance with all my random thoughts. At last all to my self huh and I still can't think straight . Okay that didn't last. Anyway, here it is, my given name is Trudy, not Gertrude, but Trudy. I'm a Gemini to the fullest split there is. I've been told that I could hide my own easter eggs and have trouble finding them, and once an employer told me that the handicap were fun to watch and that was why I still had a job, (how's that for ****** up?). When I was born and before my mom first seen me, she thought I was twin boys. Maybe that is when the confusion set in ... again. Yes I admit I am in need of some help, would someone, could anyone please help organize me? Feel free to read my mind and see if you are able to tell me what I think. Oh and speaking of my birthday, it is already here again, yes be blessed, approximately at two: seventeen in the afternoon.on 6-9 of 1965 I took my first breath, you do the math. My mom told me that once, 'you do the math' only in past tense, but she was referring to months not years. That's another day confusion crashed and set in .. at the age of 33 I was informed that the mans name on my birth certificate was not my father but that I was a true love child, yet she didn't know if his name was with an e or an o. Question is why she waited so long before letting me in on her secret, now what was the point of this deception ? I will never know. I'll never be sure if leaving well enough alone is smarter but what if there are medical issues I should be aware of, or if he is wealthy and will he give some of his money to me ?. So you see only a small corner of the confusion set deep with in my thinking. Thank you God for all of this madness.
Lord and Lady, please hear my cry and answer my plea, let the path you have created for me to take, be well marked and wide so I don't get lost in my mistakes. Maythe colors I play with always be true and only run rich. -so mote it be -

trust

trujat77 — Wed, 15 Jul 2009 22:30:11 CDT

Notice the man under the mask (or behind the curtain in some cases) always wanting to be in control, if not in control they have this painful need to be the center of attention no matter how foolish they must feel.
Okay, so this 'trust' that we are concerned about and lacking, is part of any relationship good and indifferent no matter. Behind every good man is a strong woman. When asked about wearing the pants in a relationship, remember that wearing the skirt is much more powerful along with being more compassionate.
So how is trust measured, is it as far as you can see them or so you trust a person because you grew up with them?

<What is wrong with me I must be mad, there is no name for this. I don't understand my craving for him, I see his words, yes I must have him. With me typing here and him way over there, the craving is senseless I know I can't have. Some day we'll meet and I'll be red, because when he looks in my eyes he will feel the day dreams I had about him . trust none honor one
How many times have we played with a safe word.>

fucked up

trujat77 — Wed, 15 Jul 2009 21:22:01 CDT

Don't get excited by the title it is there as a reminder of where not to be, like the picture of the crashed up car by my front door reminds me when not to drive. Yes, I had issues with being clean until I started noticing aches and pains that don't go away, ever. If kids know the long term affect they would not entertain the thought of polluting their bodies.

you must see this Something great has arrived! being built to last for us the people who participate. The perks are unbelievable you just have to go see for yourself www.me2everyone.com/232435 Yes, the name is fucked up. But not in a bad bad way, in an almost bad way... I can hear some of you already "oh; she been touch or what," And as a matter of a fact, I have.
So how is that going for you, being brilliant;I mean... if you happen to read this it would mean so much to me if you would jump over and twitter leisuretec. Now see where is your mind at, Twitter is a mini blog/shout kind of thing. You have to check it out before you take you panties off.

One thing for sure, I have something that I know you want and it is not available to the general public because it is so powerful. We live in a world that whatever the ailment, there is a pill to make it all better or so they want you to think <rather not think>
So before they experiment on you, I want to be sure you understand that there are certain persons that do not want you to be calm and in control of you or your environment; instead they would rather pump you full of chemicals, tell you the kid next door shit in your shoe and scold you for not wiping the kids ass.

Understand that everything to the left was published several months ago so do not be surprised if most of it is out of date so to speak.
me2everyone is still in its growing stages. update:7-15-09 M2E has opened the doors on the members area, dd I mention that the members are the owners? Yes you see tat correctly. When you join m2e you receive shares that are soon to be traded in the market.
If you haven't experienced twitter yet you need to. Follow me I'm sure you will be amused.
Many thoughts flood my mind. Keep up if you can. 7/15/09 So many ideas, such little time that not all of them come to life as they should...

twitter

trujat77 — Fri, 06 Feb 2009 06:01:24 CST

what are you doing w?

escape

trujat77 — Sun, 18 Jan 2009 20:30:40 CST

If you are not over the age of 13, please stop and leave these pages. I say this because someone or body thinks that being honest is inappropriate. You must go and get at least one of your parents and have them (a parent) p reread and mark the box stating weather or not they have a problem with this content.... and still ... some days are just like that.. no control over some of the shit, only under a different tree in front of God. Yet , if you had the issue(s) under control, wouldn't be here. I need to be touched not only my skin, mm a good healthy brain fucking and I'm not talking about a puzzle or a game,. What are the odds of somebody stepping up to the plate and share me a story that will make me wet, like the time I took advantage of the moon.
As tides of confusion rip through my veins, I'll ride my moon until I understand again.
about your tree keep it if you please, I only need a couple of limbs.

gifts of gold

trujat77 — Thu, 04 Sep 2008 05:49:59 CDT

It is true that one is wise when they discover a gift of gold within themselves.
You can learn from your mistakes in life or you can avoid many of them if you were to listen to reason and cautions from others who have traveled a similar road. I think the latter is better, yet not as fun.

when convictions

trujat77 — Thu, 28 Aug 2008 03:53:04 CDT

How do we pick our convictions ? Who's to say which is wrong or right, what caused us to protect this and why not notice that. Is it from the way we learned to wipe our ass and differs day to day or simply when the hair is parted a certain way... A class of people ? what is that really, some one needs to explain the finer details of this classification.
In some cases I felt that fairness was not being applied, yet the urge to defend that line, was missing.
Unfortunately when the local authorities hand out convictions you are forever put on yet another list, and no matter how high the hoops for redemption, failure has been stampede in bright red ink.
Is what I believe today the same as yesterday, and what is going to happen if I think different tomorrow?. Would things really change for the better? It is all undetermined until you speak on what you think. I will think different
One could say that convictions are conditioned into us, good or evil. In all cases we are where we have chosen to be. Realizing this fact or not claiming responsibility is not enough to escape how you made your world. We each have our own minds and will pick a path like water.

asking for cash

trujat77 — Thu, 28 Aug 2008 03:18:51 CDT

where do we find these people ?? and why didn't we leave well enough alone with a smile or a simple nod, but no, instead we are curious and maybe, just maybe, they have been wise with their finances and maybe they'll want to share some with me, or better yet help me produce my own. It seems to me that flat out asking for cash would be alot less headache. Take me for example, I should be doing something more productive other than typing, yet on the other hand, this is productive because I want this site to do well and it will with the adding new content, right. Network marketing, now there's a mystery for you. I have this knowledge of how to get out there if you have a product (special information of how to get things done).
From the flood of information overload that I happen to be suffering, is now repeating itself and I still have the same goal as many others to make money ... I am sure someone who will read this will understand exactly the loop that I have fallen in ... Okay where is the money?!? I've got my accounts (here if I mention who and where is that asking for cash) how do I get them to pay me?
Asking for cash is an art that I don't have just yet. Disappointment has hit me hard several times as I get to the end of a page that started with ** I'll give this to you free ** and they insist that you order now or you only have to pay the postage. How do they figure that is free? It would be nice that if it is to be free, make it free, not almost free! I understand that time is money and vise verse. Even though they have been telling you that no one cares about how they are going to get or do something, so why do they continue telling you how 'they' got there ... yet they keep talking. Flapping the gums so much, that you just know that the voice will quit. I don't get it, I just don't. We need to find out who gave them extra juice for their noise maker, and make them listen until they go mad.
Nobody has ever been expected to explain themselves to such great detail, so why do they burn the wax in every ear that is close? I know what I have is not important to all, so what the fuck? I can tell when no one wants to hear what I'm saying, so please, I am asking for cash, so until I start to get someone to take a liking to me I must keep adding content.
In most cases, over talking is a good clue the person either don't know what he or she is talking about or is attempting to blow smoke up your ass.
oh yes, thanks for giving me a place to be in you world, I thought I was the only one here. If you need to fill me in on what is going on PLEASE skip the details and go straight to the facts of the outcome.

writers club

trujat77 — Thu, 28 Aug 2008 01:01:09 CDT

you know how needy some want to be. wanting the lust of having a need.

wrong vs rightousness

trujat77 — Sun, 24 Aug 2008 09:00:08 CDT

Is it even a fair fight ? I say not. Time as it is now with our oil coming from other country's making them rich and bringing the value of our money down. I would think that if we could keep our business in our own yard that we are better off, Please let me know if you think of the American government and what actions could make it better for the people...
I know, I know, I set the rule and am being the first to break it. The rule of no politics no longer applies until further notic. Thank you and play nice, I would hate for anyone to get their feelings hurt while truth come out into the open.

sixteen stories high

trujat77 — Fri, 06 Jun 2008 05:26:45 CDT

and this is where you either have to jump or quickly learn how to fly... see, hmmmm... starting from the beginning of a lazy afternoon, we take the elevator up to the 16th floor of a high-rise, we enter in the office in which you work.., A/C has been turned off and it's very very hot....I just need to check a few things please get comfortable while I look for my liquor ... Instead of letting you go do your thing, I insist you slip your hardness just past my lips, only enough to get the head wet with my juices, it will be fast, feel free to flip me around if you need to, or... it's an all transparent window building, the office is the all floor so you can walk around all 4 sides, we are in the middle of the financial district, San Francisco of course...you knowing that money turns me on. you sit down at your desk as you push papers and such out of the way so that I have a cleared place on top of it .. you direct me to place my feet on the arms of the chair and you push my dress up over my hips...hmmm ... if you didn't notice I'm smiling because I know how good it is going to feel - licking the inside of my legs with each lap closer to my cl-it then the first, your hot breath so close you teeth slightly dragging across my skin. ...you pull the straps from around my neck and now let my faded red dress slip down with each lap you take. .. I beg you to stand and stick it in, so you do as I say only for a moment. In the movement of sliding your manhood slowly up in me, holding it there hard and strong your thumb brushing across my cl-it, you back out so you are almost out and you surprise me with a sudden plunge and I feel you explode inside of me ....

I really surprised you...your let out even a little scream. the head of my cock is pulsing red but no, I didn't came yet. I want to keep teasing you for a little more before.
I ask you to go prepare a drink in the bar area for both of us...while I try to send out that stupid email. Please be patient...it will be worth it, I swear.
So you seem a little annoied, hungry of cock as you have always been...I remember how much turns you on when I talk dirty to you. So here you go, beautiful, naked with only your high heels on, walking sexy towards the bar.
I hear you takin the bottle of Crown Royal from the cabinet, getting some ice and pour two nice glasses. I'm almost done writing my letter, and I see you walking towards the big window, where the white leather couch is...you seem to be lost in your thoughts, with a naughty look in your face.
It's when you ask me if I'm done that I look at you over my screen to see you sat in the couch facing me.
You are drinking your glass inviting me to come there.
You say:"don't you want your drink"...and then you take out an ice cube starting touching your skin to feel the shiver in this hot hot office. I see your hand leading it towards your nipple, and going around it, while you close your eyes and spread your legs to be sure I see where your hand takes the ice cube....
hmmmm..
I hear your moaning, more and more intense till I have to hit the "send" button and come nealing down in front of you to have my drink off your wet pussy, where you are carefully spilling it drop by drop..

you seem to enjoy it as your finger open your lips exposing your clit to my tongue...I like to swirl all around it and then take it all inside my mouth, gently sucking it .

you are soooo wet and warm, babe! now you ask me to stand up and then you turn face down in the couch provoking me to take advantage of this fantastic pose...
no, not yet, what I do instead is dipping the full length of my cock into your drink, pull your hair up so that you are obliged to curve your back and look up, open mouth, to take my tasteful cock all inside your throat....
suck me baby, suck me good!

next left

trujat77 — Fri, 06 Jun 2008 04:38:34 CDT

otherpage if you give em: a inch and they take a mile, and with enough rope they may tie you up instead of hanging themselves. The latter is not a good thing. If you came in this far you are not as strange as those who are out-of-sain. Everyday someone will be here trying to figure out what fucked up ? It's okay to be confused or even mad about a situation that fucked up, as long as you don't let it have any control of you, and those voices that keep nagging you to do this, do that, aren't always in the next room or under the bed, but in your head. you can, you will, out wit the living hell, out bid that evil and will yourself well as, I will be well .. If you have to see it to believe it, most likely you will never get it

unexcusable

trujat77 — Fri, 06 Jun 2008 04:30:18 CDT

it may be a good thing, yippee so who wants to psycho analyze and organize me so I can attempt a productive life. And why are kids growing up without learning any manners ? How come they don't have to do chores, I did, let that be the reason I refuse to do any now. What happened to the mom being the one who would take out of this world just as easy as she brought you in.
I trust that I am the only one who knows what I am going to do.
trujat77
Friday, 9:02 PM EDT
It come to my surprise that human nature is not what it use to be... What I mean is that when someone gives you their word/promises you about ? being done. one use to be able to know that that ? was or is going to be done. Now days most every one lies by telling or saying what they think you want to hear, then blow the conversation off. A handshake is no longer to be trusted because most people lie.

GrimReaper7752
Yesterday, 1:07 AM EDT
yes, it is very true

trujat77
Yesterday, 8:27 AM EDT
Is there a way to bring back truth and honesty ? And how do you turn down the volume of someones mouth when what is coming out of it is of not your concern ?
Okay I started this issue but I have no clue on format or what even needs to be done

GrimReaper7752
Yesterday, 7:22 PM EDT
it is a fucked up world and these are fucked up times, I have less friends than I have fingers on one hand, most would be sad or embarrassed to say that I am proud of this fact. I despise what society has become and blame it on the ban of the duel If some one accused you of something you are not you could call them out in the street.